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Lucky Mummy

I know I am a lucky Mummy. I have two wonderful children who are healthy and absolutely gorgeous. So far, they are well behaved and they’ve made my “Mummy dreams” come true! 

But… I know that. I know all that.
I think I take Emeline for granted. I say think because I appreciate every ounce of her and spend all the time I can with her and her beautiful self. 

Emeline is such an easy baby and I take that for granted. Whenever we go anywhere, she just comes along and sits her pushchair. She doesn’t make a fuss and just watches the world go by. Everyone said that the second baby will just fit in and go along with life but I also expected her to be a little more demanding, something she totally isn’t. 

I have blitzed the house this week and she sat on the floor and just played with her toys, dancing to the music on the TV and chatting and shouting at me. She didn’t make a fuss. She just watched and enjoyed looking around, I stopped for feeding and to cuddle her and in those moments, I realised that I wanted to cuddle her more to just enjoy her and her angelic ways. 

On days when we are out for Jenson, like last week at Country File. She spent the whole time in her pram, she notices and talks to the people we pass and chews on her toys. Emeline loves looking around. It got to about 3pm and I realised how much I missed her, she had been there all day but I missed her, I missed her cuddles and playing with her and just being with her. I took her for granted that she just enjoys life happily. I could have worn her in her sling, or had her out for longer playing and feeding but I did what I needed to and put her back in for Jenson’s day out. I totally took her loveliness for granted and I feel sad. I also feel torn, it makes life easy that Jenson can enjoy a day as he is more demanding at the moment and being the summer holidays, he needs to be entertained. 

I do wonder if this is 2nd child syndrome overall really, they all plod along and don’t get that 1:1 care the first child had, I know that happens. It won’t always be like this or this easy, so I’ll enjoy it and squidgy her up as much as I can. No doubt she will be a terror of a toddler or a teenager! 

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Lucky in love, lucky in life.

I have been so very fortunate in my life, I have a lovely family who is incredibly supportive and a sister who is like my best friend. I have a wonderful husband who looks after me in the best possible way and cares for me and the children. I am now a Mummy and that alone is a privilege, let alone have the two poppets that I do. Every day is a blessing. I am so thankful and fortunate to have them and I know that. 

We are also so lucky with our friends, we have a select few but I could trust them with anything and rely on them. I feel safe and happy when we are around them, we laugh and eat and drink together, never a dull moment. I know that whenever I am feeling low or something bothers me, they will always be there. 

I have Abbi, my best friends that I met at college, we have been though far too much and I spent my later teens growing up with her. We have done so much together and she has taught me so much through life, especially to be more calm and less high maintenance. She is the most wonderful friend and woman and she is an amazing God parent to Jenson and Emeline. 

Sian and Hannah who I met at uni, Hannah and I lived together for the four years so we are beyond use to each other.

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12th August 

This post is sickening and full of love. Be warned!

12th August is our wedding anniversary. This year, 2016, we celebrate 6 years of marriage. Mostly marital bliss! In the last 6 years, our marriage and relationship has gone from strength to strength. We were just Mr and Mrs Childs, the two of us, for 18 months before we became a team of three and then last December there was four of us! 

I am always really excited for our anniversary, we never buy huge gifts, in fact, I don’t get Scott anything but he always buys me something special to represent the tradition, paper, wood etc. I am interested as to what my gift is this year. For some reason, I just really look forward to celebrating our anniversary. I look forward to it and get excited about it. We talk about the day and what we did at what time, what we ate, who we saw and what we enjoyed. I love sharing the memories and even the photos with Jenson now too. The yearly reflection on the wedding DVD comes out too and catching up on the photos albums! The standard wedding traditions. 

We have been good at celebrating our anniversary:

  • 1st Year – we went to London for three days and saw The Lion King.
  • 2nd Year  – we went to Mersea and had a picnic in a special picnic basket, we had a take away. Jenson was 6 months old.
  • 3rd year – We went to Windsor for a few days and went to Legoland.
  • 4th year – we had a dinner out, but we went to Disney on the 16th!
  • 5th year – we went shopping for Emeline’s Nursery last year and had dinner out.

It is hard with young children but it is the only time that actually, I really want us to be a family. Our marriage was the start of our family and our adventure and I think we should celebrate together. This year, we are going to the beach. The weather is meant to be lovely and we will have warm doughnuts, fish and chips, ice cream and fresh seafood. Every year we go and make a real day of it, we always have a lovely time and that’s how I want to spend it tomorrow, the four of us. 

So, to my Gorgeous Husband, 
Happy 6th Wedding anniversary. Thank you for another wonderful year full of laughter, tears, happiness, anger, frustration and love. We are the best team around, the A team, and I love being part of a team with you. We have two, truly wonderful children who have changed our lives for, mostly, the better. I love the husband and father you are. I love the life and family we have and the memories we make.

Thank you for working so hard for us as a family and giving me the family I always wanted. You’ve made my dreams a reality in the best possible way and there is no one else who I would wish to share these dreams with or my love with.

Love you always, xxx

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Country File Live

This week, my love for the outside peaked. My best friend got us tickets to Country File Life. I’m not going to deny that initially, I humoured her a lot! I think I was expecting bird watching pods and silence but it was the absolute opposite. We had an amazing time!!! 

Blenheim Palace

It was held in Oxford at Blenheim Palace, a huge, beautiful location. The grounds were stunning and perfect for Country File Live. We followed the amazing directions and arrived ready for opening at half 9, we took a long walk to the opening gates. We could have used the tractor shuttle but it would have been a nightmare with the two pushchairs. Jenson was so excited by the passing tractors and stopping to wave that he didn’t even mumble about us not getting on it! 

Once we were in, I realised the scale of the event! It was massive. I immediately saw archery for adults and children, fishing, kayaking and organisations such as the RSPB, the Woodland Trust and the National Trust to name a few. Everywhere I looked, it went on for miles and miles. There were tents full of crafts, clothes, food and drink as well as art, photography and homeware. There were shows and show grounds for dogs, birds, horses, farming and even mechanical.

We walked up the middle initially and we were welcomed by the smell of amazing food. As predicted, this event was full of small businesses selling their finest. You name it, it was there, Thai food, carvery, hog roast, pizza, pasta, BBQ, sandwiches, pizza… the list went on and on. There were the most amount of champagne and prosecco stalls, as well a pimms and cider. They even had a pub garden area. For us though, we are all about the tea! That was limited!! We searched for ages and finally found some tea, a coffee and cake stall… the queue was huge! As we moved around we noticed more and finally sat down and had a cuppa, the Woodland Trust had an amazing tent for tea and even gave away an “invite a tree to tea” pack for children. 

As we explored throughout the day, there was so much to do for children and families. Most of the charities and companies were aimed at exploring and making things and the children had so much to do that they could take home. Jenson was in his element all day, he learnt so much, had so many experiences and took it all in. Here are some of the things he did, although I am sure I forgot some:

  • Milking a cow
  • Collecting eggs
  • Petting farm
  • Holding a chuck 
  • Stroking rabbits 
  • Exploring owl pellets
  • Bug hunting 
  • Making seed balls 
  • Friendship bracelets
  • Toasting marshmallows 
  • Making a fire 
  • Driving tractors 
  • Stroking a micro pig 
  • Making a bug hotel 
  • Investigating moths and their wings and patterns 
  • Pond dipping 
  • Climb a tree
  • Making a den 

In particular, the Woodland Trust was amazing as was the National Trust. They had a huge area for children to work towards their “50 things to do before I am 11 and 3/4″. It was heaven for any child and family. Adam Henson also had a lovely area for farming with young children, it was really hands on and the children got to explore different areas. The day was filled with so many experiences, Jenson enjoyed every aspect of it, he loved seeing the tractors and the farming in action. 

There was such a variety. Jenson tried so many things, Country File Live provided him with so many opportunities and different things to explore. We finished the day by collecting pizza and eating on the grass by our cars. The children were shattered and the legs of the adults ached. Jenson had walked and ran around all day! 

It was a fantastic day and we will be back next year. 

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Roll on tomorrow

Today has been a bad Mummy day. 

On top of woman hormones which have returned after a long 15 months, Jenson has been the biggest whinge bag and Emeline has been in the most amount of pain from constipation. 

Now, of course, I am trying not to be dramatic and I am not wishing the end of summer away for Jenson to immediately start school, I am a teacher and I can’t wish away this beautiful, summer holiday but I missed nursery a lot today.

I am feeling like the world’s worst mum after losing my shit for the 50,000 time. That’s just today. Jenson has lost the ability to listen or even acknowledge me when I am talking and has developed the whiniest voice known to man. This is followed by 28 million questions yet he can’t even answer or decide when asked what sandwich filler he would like!!! I am a firm believer in carrying out out threats and discipline! So, no bedtime stories was threatened and then he lost that. That’s one of our favourite times of day being just us and Jenson, he loves stories and the absolute last resort but I had counted to 5 about a million times and I was begin to scream like a banshee. Bad parenting!!! We got Jenson out the house to let off steam in an attempt to change his attitude but it just wore him out and made him worse!!! 

Emeline has been constipated since Thursday, this is so unlike her. It is also uncommon as a breastfed baby. She has struggled and strained so much. She finally passed some yesterday but this was not easy for her. She cried and cried and sobbed and sobbed. Lots of leg cycling, baths and cuddles things started to get easier for her, she cut down her meals and has gone back to just breast milk. As a result of her straining, she has a tear in her bottom. The poor little poppet has exhausted herself with crying but she finally has softer stools. Emeline has been waking up with tummy ache and is so tired from her restless nights that she has been snuggling me. She never sleeps snuggling me so that has been a special treat. 

Being the summer holidays, I had lots of lovely fun things planned for my days with the kids but I am still waiting to be paid, usually 26th of the month but they hadn’t realised I had returned to work! This has put a stop to the world being our oyster feeling!!! Worrying about money is the biggest stress. I realise how fortunate we are and I make the choice to work so we can have and do nice things together as a family but we also live to our means, we have survived well on statutory maternity pay and still been able to do lots of lovely things, visited places, gone on days out, ate out and had lots of take aways but I wanted this to be extended over the summer so it’s mega frustrating. Payroll have reassured me I should be paid by the end of the week but that’ll be almost 2 weeks late. Frustrating. 

Not every part of my day was awful, there were glimmers of sparkles and glitter. Every woman needs sparkles and glitter! Last week, we had our milk stolen from our door step, after reporting it to the dairy, they suggested I reported it to the non-emergency police line incase there were more in the area and/or it happened again. I felt ridiculous. I also wanted my order refunded and needed to report it to get our money back, the dairy were fab. However, it was earlier today that our local newspaper reported on a similar incident, which made me howl laughing!!! 

Breaking news:

http://m.braintreeandwithamtimes.co.uk/news/14655009.Thieves_steal_milk_and_bottles_from_outside_a_house/

There were others in our neighbourhood, I certainly didn’t take my milk story to the newspaper!!! 

We also snuggled up and watched Minions on the sofa with lunch – that was disappointing! Our day was made better when Jenson’s school uniform arrived, labelled jumpers, fleeces, pblo shirts and PE kits and we had a fashion show! Can’t believe how grown up he is, nor the expense!!! 

I know that, hopefully, I’ll wake up feeling a bit happier tomorrow. Scott is on nights so I’ll get an early night. I am currently drinking tea and watching series one of Desperate Housewives. Tomorrow is a new day and it’ll all be okay. Jenson would have slept really well and Emeline will be less grumpy. 

Fingers crossed!